Oswald, briefly

Let me share what I read today of Oswald Chambers:

"The moral miracle of Redemption is that God can put into me a new disposition whereby I can live a totally new life..."

Sounds pretty good.

"...When I reach the frontier of need and know my limitations, Jesus says - 'Blessed are you.' But I have to get there. God cannot put into me, a responsible moral being, the disposition that was in Jesus Christ unless I am conscious I need it."

And that's where I have the most trouble. I consider myself, compared to most people (at least as I view them), responsible and moral. In light of Chambers' words, that is a confession, not a boast.

But I keep hoping that, and counting on, God is moving me to a place of need, so that I can move past it, to the new life part. Because I really want that, to be selfless, aware and loving of other people, attentive to the movings of the Spirit (big and small) - but I need to get to a point of need first. And it may take awhile, because I tend to be stubborn and rebellious.

That's it for now. Pictures of the house to come soon... and in other news, my hairline continues to recede.